Malcom who? Just kidding, kind of. It had been several days since we have talked (and by talked I mean texted). But theres hope in store, because there's a new gentleman in my life.
And you may think I skip around from guy to guy, but really, my heart has been pretty set on Malcom for like the past 6 months. So this is a HUGE step that I'm branching out. I can't say that my heart is completely separated from Malcom, but the newbie guy is a wonderful distraction.
I'll call him "E", again for confidentiality purposes. He's amazing. And great. I told this to my parents and they go "Well, you say that about every body." Maybe I do, but E is different. He LIKES ME TOO! He's extremely respectful, he calls me gorgeous, he's funny and we can talk for hours upon hours without being bored or anything. And the entire time we both have these crazy smiles on our faces. During the day I think about him and he told me he thinks about me all day too. Isn't that cute? Did I mention he's in the Army?! I have a weakness for boys in uniform. Discipline is sexy!
I'm super excited because since he's not going anywhere for Thanksgiving, I invited him to have Thanksgiving with Carly and I! So he's coming Wednesday and staying until Sunday. Spending time with someone I know for a fact likes me in return will be something new. I haven't had a guy be TRULY interested in me in 4 years. So I'd say it's about time. He doesn't know about the eating disorder and I definitely don't plan on telling him until (and if we do) become serious. He told me he's not judgmental, and I really believe him. I just don't want him to associate me with an eating disorder. Especially not during Thanksgiving (an anorexic's least favorite day of the year). So, I will let you all know how that goes.
And now for eating disorder stuff...
I'm still going to IOP at Canopy Cove once a week. It might not seem like alot, but it truly is helpful. Even having that one meal and snack with the group is beneficial. It helps me get back on track for the rest of the week.
Things on my own have been alright. I haven't been able to stick to the meal plan that Ashlee and I came up with, but I KNOW for a fact that I'm not losing any weight. I can feel it. If anything, I feel like I've been gaining. But in my session with Karen on Monday she told me there hadn't been any change. Surely, I trust Canopy Cove but I just feel like I'm gaining anyway. I still have those strong, and I mean strong, urges to lose weight. Not a significant amount, just like I said before, maybe 10 pounds. I don't think those feelings will ever go away.
Some other good news is that I got a new job! Right now it's just substituting at a preschool called Scottsdale Academy. But perhaps someday I'll have a more permanent position there. I'm pretty excited about it. If you know me, you know that I LOVE babies and little tykes. And there they have infants as little as 6 weeks to toddlers as old as 5. And in my other job, I got a little promotion. My boss wants me to be her executive assistant the days that I am available. She even offered me a raise along with that. When the Lord provides, He really provides!
So as I venture forward into this weekend, I'm hoping things remain stable for me, and get better for those around me.
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