Girls Just Wanna Have Fun

I'm just getting sucked deeper and deeper into the whirlpool of behaviors. It seems like my usage of them is slowly increasing and its scary. There's no way I want to be at the point I used to be. But in the past the only way I could get out of this rut was to go inpatient. I definitely don't want to do that. I have work! Is that a good enough excuse? Plus, the only place I would consider going back to is Canopy Cove. Can my heart afford to be ripped apart from them again? I'm not sure. 


In other news, my weekend was a blast. Friday through Sunday I used no behaviors. I ended up taking a road trip to  Atlanta. It was the best time I have had in such a long time. I desperately needed that too. Just some fun in my life, ya know? 


My friend introduced me to his friend (I'll call him Cooper). We have been Skyping for a few weeks but then I finally got to meet him in person this weekend. I will tell you, he is SO much different than any other guy I've EVER dated. He's a little bit older (30), but that only means he is more mature. He wouldn't even kiss me at first because he said he liked me so much he didn't want things to just be based on physical stuff. Now you may be wondering about the Minister. Well, after our camping excursion, I heard very little from him to the point that it's been almost a week since we've talked. 


Anyway, Cooper and I really hit it off and that's my point of this post. That, and the fact that I finally enjoyed myself. Even around food. Cooper knows about the eating disorder and once when we were eating lunch, he looked over at me taking a big slurp of soup and said, "You have never looked more beautiful than you do now." He really is super supportive. There isn't a day that goes by where he says how proud he is of me and how much of a fighter I am. It's nice to get some recognition of the battle I went through. 


This weekend helped me realize that fun times are still possible. They are out there. Sometimes you just have to be aware of who you are surrounding yourself with. Make sure they're supportive and loving and you'll only have fun times.