Productivity is essential to be successful I've decided. Thankfully, I have been feeling productive lately. A few days ago I bought a sketchbook and pencils from Michael's. If you know me, then you would know that I love anything artsy. Well, all of my art supplies are in New York still from when I was going to art school. So this week, after years of not really following my artsy side, I broke out the sketchbook and started drawing. Since I bought it, I've been drawing every day. And this may seem like a simple "hobby" or whatever, but really, even if I do nothing all day (like if its a Saturday or Sunday), and I draw a sketch, I still feel accomplished. Productive. And productivity is the key to success.
In other news, I have still been seeing my new therapist, Dr. St. Hillier, once a week since my Canopy Cove stay ended. Suprisingly, the sessions are going well. Shes older than any of the therapists at Canopy Cove. She's very grandmotherly, and I like that. I thought it would be awkward to talk about guys and sex and stuff like that, but it isn't. She makes me feel really comfortable. Plus, she has two tiny pups that get to play with me during our sessions. Pet therapy rules!
The dating scene has actually been kind of active lately. Like yesterday for instance, I went to Starbucks (as usual) and this guy randomly started talking to me. We exchanged numbers or whatever and I met him today to walk at Lake Ella. He went to kiss me but I totally denied him. It felt good to be in charge of what happens. Thats something I never would have done years ago in high school. I didn't care what happened to my body or soul back then. I just got a very platonic vibe from him, which is fine. There's nothing wrong with friends. I think I just tend to lead guys on because I'm so friendly. Oops!
Plus, there's one guy in particular who currently has my attention. I hate saying this so soon but I think something could develop with him. I don't necessarily think this about every guy but with him it's different. Why? It's because he makes me want to be a better person. And because we have meaningful conversations. He asks me questions like "How do you picture God?" and "If you had a song to define your life, what would it be?". He gets me thinking, and I like that. Did I mention he's a minister?! I'll be sure to keep you all updated.
Eating.....
Ughh, do I really have to talk about it?
It's been the same. Day after day after day. Same thing for breakfast, and dinner. There's seldom a lunch involved. And when I do eat, I really rush through it because I don't want to be eating. I still can't get over the way it makes me feel- yet I'm still cautious about getting that "empty" feeling in my stomach. I know once I get the "empty" feeling, its near impossible to start back up on any type of meal plan.
So although eating has been stagnant, dating and my newly resurrected love for art have been keeping me hopeful and positive...and productive.
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